Lazy. The last 2 weeks I have been lazy. I don't want to plan my meals but I know if I don't. I will eat crap and FEEL like crap.
"FAIL TO PLAN. PLAN TO FAIL." - Benjamin Franklin
I started Phentermine at the beginning of April. I was expecting BIG things from this drug but have kinda been disappointed. I was started on 15mg and after about a week and a half, I doubled this because I had no weight loss. When I started taking the drug, I was nervous about the rapid heart rate but my body has gotten used to it. I am losing "roughly" 2 pounds a week which is healthy I suppose but not as dramatic as I thought it would be.
The 3rd week of April I went back to the Dr. Vitals were great and she increased my dose to the max.(37.5mg) She said FDA recommends short term use (2 months) but as long as I am losing weight I will continue. What I do like about this drug...and at the same time scares me because at some point I know I will have to go off of it is...ENERGY!
I feel like I can fly.
My house is spotless. I am a super star at work (in my mind anyway).
This weekend was the Stanberry City Wide Sales. It rained. I wasn't expecting much but did go to 2 inside sales. One was at the church. I knew the lady that was working the check out stand. She looked amazing. I hadn't seen her in a long time. She said she was down 50 pounds. I thought to myself. That is amazing! What an accomplishment!!! Will I ever be able to say that? She had a ton of clothes for sale that were now too big for her and some were too big for me as well. I did buy some scrubs that were an XL. (I have been wearing 2XL and a couple 3XL). Brought them home and ALL OF THEM fit. Some snugger than I would wear to work at this time because I like my clothes loose. I wanna be comfortable. My husband said the tight ones look "great" but he's a man. His opinion is irrelevant!
I have 2 pairs of jeans. They both fit. They both fit loosely. I went shopping to buy my boys some new clothes and looked for me and I thought. Why would I buy now? I don't intend to stay this size. When I get down to 165 (my first BIG goal). I will buy a pair. A pair of expensive jeans. That will be my treat to myself.
I have earned it!!!
To all of you who are or ever have struggled with your weight. It is NOT easy. In fact? It's hard as hell! It's a struggle. Every single day it is a struggle. I admire these fit people. They work for it! It does not come naturally! But what I have learned is it is possible.
"HARD WORK. DEDICATION." - Dolvett Quince